New progress

I hope it's not a big deal that it takes too long time till I write down my story in this blog. I don't want to tell you anymore, just to remain why. Take your time to read the posts before =) it shall explained everything! So, I don't have any idea to write, so I just take my time, sit on this wooden chair with my books around me, and a puff I hug. It's comfortable to write anything. Circumstance! It gives inspiration. Lucky me! My house just has a front yard, and we have terrace [and a balcony upstairs] back of the yard. Not such a huge yard, but who cares if there are tens of tropical plants here. And this room just really Javanese style, and WOODEN! So, I can write down in this blog again because of my home sweet home. So, this month I should complete my test. I just completed my English test ended up with TOEFL test. Guess what that dramatically progress?! I get increased!! I've got 473,3 for this test =) remember when I told you I just get 430? Yeah it increased. Awesome... I think He gives me so much thing to enjoy/glad to. Woohoo!

Hi!

Heyyyy! Count on how much times I passed without write to you from this blog. I don't think I would regularly write it because I don't really have enthusiasm about it. I mean, it's a little portion to my future times. And I have a blog in case of poetry and literature instead of telling my habits. If you would to read, it's on here. Click to directed into the blog. I should warn you, that blog is Indonesian language only :)

Love and Silence (fiction)

These days is adorable. All the struggle and passion likely come to me. Not a sudden (or it's so). I walked fast every time we met, and that feeling was the GREAT feeling ever in my mind. More than the final I ever want, a propose. But who cares for this little-baby-child? A 15 years old not old enough, isn't it? And for a love came to this baby-child, it was ignored by the world. Don't you feel disgusting by the people, if they say, "Oh, you're a little! It isn't your position to loving a guy." I fight on this situation that all people should think that 15 years old girl, doesn't have a MUST to feel love. Okay, so I feel it, I judge it, and I permitted it for my own self. You should try this trick, so, you would not feel alone! One day I met him on this church. This small and developing church. With no bells every morning, and no clean toilets. Where the people come for pray and serves and went back home in the joy. I sat in that huge room and wonder why I'm here? For a bless or for the people? For a give or for an ask? As a early teen, I even don't know, why should I have this religion on me. And a pray is an habit. When a boy come and change my life. I don't care for the any feels I ever felt. All my focused is on that feeling... and his eyes, I thought. And the priest, the choir, and the preach, I ignore them for the eyes shoot me here, at this here, right here. The organization just predetermine us to meet. But that feeling is an awkward. By the age of 16 of mine, we only talk for introduction. I'm Lulu, and he's Chris. That's all. He's too superior which makes me small. He's too smart and brilliant, I thought. He school at the best college. And me? I'm just 16, five years younger than him. He wouldn't take a look on this baby-child. And this day, I just never talked to him after that introduction. I pretend to not know him, as my heart was broken. I grow my own family and let him outside of my door. He's not allowed to come to this new family of mine, which my children would be 16 and 14 this year. I don't let him. I'm disappointed~LULU
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That time when I was twenty, I sat on that room, which my favorite church in this city. My orientation is dream high so I could collect money for myself. Not actually for myself, but, hey, it was self developing! I get all I need, like graduated from my highschool and continued to this popular and best-known school. Even I don't have a lover all this time, but I enjoy this situation as an intelligence. That time when I met a girl which is five years younger than me, I felt disgusted of her acts. She dance like a child and I don't even give respect to her. I mean, she is an highschool student. She is an freshman. I don't think I would give respect to any younger. But she's quite shy, I think. We talked a bit, but just like, "My name is Lulu." And I just like, "Yeah... hi, Lulu! My name's Chris." That's all. Three years later she is graduated and school at the same school as mine (she's smart, I don't even think about that!). But I'm already graduated and work. That time I make sure that she's quite perfect (nobody's perfect!). But I shy of the thought that I mocked her the first time we met. And I also don't think if she likes me, which is so much older than her. I'm too shy to aware that I fall in love to her. So, we keep never talked each other. The last day I met her, when I fall asleep almost seventy years from that time. Guess what! I'm almost 100, yes. When I just dreamed about my descendants grow older and have a good work on their time. When suddenly my dreams change into a girl. A young girl. She said, "Although I'm disappointed that we never know and friends, but I would say something which memorable to you." I answered, "Yes, what?". "I'm gonna leave you now. You may be sleep in peace after it because no question about me on your mind. Thanks for everything," she said gently. I know she hugs me after that. I was shocked and in the morning, the news spread. That Lulu, the girl I just know, love, and mocked, died after suffer the cancer for thirty years! Yes, miracle always happened, but it sometimes came too late. I have this program to tell anyone to say whatever you think about someone you love before it's too late and disappoint came to you! Quick before it's too late~CHRIS

Gallery #1

These days just got fun since all my friends is enjoying their break after National Final Examination 2013. I have little time three times a week to have fun and enjoy my life with my best friends. Meeting friends and having friends are two things I really wait for. No matter they have flaws, but, hey, we should be honest we're full of flaws! Don't judge what you look but the empiric. So go on it, research it, and you'll know they have their own goodness above their flaws. And one of my friend, Ajeng, was so enjoyable person and we chat about anything and bike over the village or until Prambanan Temple (also known as 'A Thousand Temples' or 'Seribu Candi'). During the break she came and last time we had take our photographs so it will memorize to our own. And guess where am I? Yep! I wore blue T-shirt with my hair tied back and I don't have bangs. We also bring some seasonal flowers. The form just similar as dandelions in Europe/America/Australia. Since we don't have dandelion in Indonesia. Ajeng wore black shirt (or gray). And she has slanted eyes. More slanted than mine. I don't think I'm slanted eyes. And her eyebrow just lighter and thinner than mine. In short she's like Malayan Mongoloid/East Mongoloid, and I'm half Caucasoid, since, YES, I'm half Portugal.

Sorry!

SORRY GUYS! I'm regret that I have no enough time to update this blog like weekly or more regular than that. Just because I'm a homeschool student doesn't mean I'm free on job. I have hard duties as a homeschool student and I divide my time to spend to write this blog. I will post as many as possible; if only I could. The problem nowadays is that I have tests next week, on Monday, 6th of May. And I'm going to be Pre-U student. That's mean I'm on my work to search and linked to colleges I will attend. I think about universities, since it's less than 2 years until I'm 17 years old and old enough to going "outside this circle" anymore. I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Keep in touch, since I actively on Twitter and E-mail. But I think next we isn't possible :( as I told you in this article, next week I have tests. For Philosophy, Maths, Psychology, Sociology, Biology, Language (Indonesia, English, French), Ethics, Discussion, Writing, Economy, and World History (in particular of World War I and II, and about Holocaust and Nazi). It was hard since there will be essay for all of them. One lesson a day. I will have test about TWO WEEKS imagine! So, it will be busy this month.

Something that could be fun...

Something that could be fun is... NEW EXPERIENCE. Doesn't matter if it was good or bad experience, it always fun to learn about our life. As we know that the old people give a thought that "EXPERIENCE IS A GOOD TEACHER". I believe on that. Though we don't aware about that yet, we will be sometime, when it was working to our life. That does to me. This experience need a hard work, high skill, and good confidence. Yeah, act! I used to be actress when I was younger. I mean school actress (LMAO :D). And now, it was so long time since the last time I decided to end my career (not ACTUALLY career) to be an actress. Then now I started to repeated my GOLDEN TIME when I become an theater/drama player. It wasn't easy. But yes it was fun. And something like stick on teenager souls is CRUSH *winked eyes*. I don't want to pretend to be innocence. I know a lot about crush and love, since I learn about Personality and Psychology. But hey, I'm the subject too. Just let to say, I feel the same as what I study about. So, yeah, it was happened to me. What happened to me now isn't crush or love. I just used to crushed on him, and now he's only an idol and totally I don't even wanted to make him as my crush again. I mean, not yet. May be I just remember of the TEST I should passed next week, and the school I should passed until next year. It was completely HARD. And I don't have too much time to spend my energy and time for crush on someone. But an idol is a figure of WHAT YOU WANNA REACH. So, that's why people should idol a good person (yolo :p). And a crush is a need, sometimes. Back to the topic. I just had fun to this experience and hope for some more CRAZY experience I could passed and enjoyed on. Cheerz!

Collage for my photograph

Hi! Now I just like to combine picture to picture and create a digital collage. Nowadays, I just create basic shape of collage, but next time I'll go for another shape of collage. I have two collages. The first is family collage, and the other is my photograph collage.

You can conclude here that me, I have long haired and prefer to tied it up or make a bun. But now I cut it off. You also may to conclude that I have one younger brother which is on his early teenage and dark tanned skin. He is taller than me and Ma. He also loves Guns N' Roses (SLASH!!!). Other conclusion is that my Ma is the shortest one and the most light skin. She also wear glasses and a bit big, but she's awesome. Other, that my Pa is tallest. Even he's only 1,62 meter. I also have a female pom dog, which really cute and fluffy. And I also have a cousin. She is with my Pa in this collage, and she wore blue shirt. She has short and extremely curly hair. We meet her last March.

I also love to documented MY SELF. I hope I'm a model, but I have so many flaws to be as perfect as a model. Like, I have short body. I'm only 1.6 meters. And I have just little confidence, and I'm a bit have height. So, I prefer to documented my self with my own pocket camera. This collage is all my face. I tied up my short hair. And can you see the guitar I hold? Yes, I can play guitar quite well. I like to sing Candle in the Wind '97 by Elton John and Angel by Sarah McLachlan (and PLAY the guitar!). Sometime I wish I could be more taller than this height I have. And I'm happy that I have enough struggle to reach that. I have the goal that I could be 1.65 meters (added 5 more centimeters) in a year. Which mean by end of April 2014 (or I'm 16 years old), I have the height of my dream. Then I can start to dream about being a model. Or just a model for college magazine, OR just in this blog. Well, I wish I could.

My room as a gift (3rd series)

It's my duty to finish all the three series in case of my 15th birthday last April, 15th. I already told you that I get my room for preparation of 15 age of my life. I decorate it unclear. But now, I just felt it's awesome room since I hanged up shelves and table that supporting my job and duty.

From this natural natural nature, I decide to create natural room and the shelves. Since this post is stress/focusing on my new shelves, I just capture these shelves.

Did I mentioned to you yet, that I'm Christian, so, I organize my room as a Christian. Since I collect so many Christianity sculptures, and gave by other, I have so many collection of Christianity. I adore Saint Virgin Mary the most, but I'm not discriminate the other. We believe in one God. I still hunt for Santa Veronica sculpture. Since I'm also Angelic, also had the sculpture. That one is St. Michael the Archangel. He step on a demon that it's meaningful to me.

The demon he steps on

Isn't he's so adorable? The painting is took from Wikipedia for St. Michael. I know that I'm so Orthodox, but I think almost all Christian is Angelic. And I hear that Muslim too. I think it's because angel is adorable creature. That they were best known as guardians and servant.

My Saint Virgin Mary sculpture is especially for the Event of Lourdes. Did you know the story? I like that story so much. The girl named Bernadette Soubirous (b. January, 7th, 1844 - d. April, 16th 1879) saw to process of wild beautiful roses grew in the wasteland, that even water cannot came up. The top event is that she saw Saint Virgin Mary. From that time the Pope of Roman Catholic Blessed her as a Saint.

Those two old photos is took from Wikipedia for St. Bernadette of Lourdes.

Encyclopedia of Saints and a childish Bible from my aunt

 Those two rosary and rosary case with Cross shaped is two objects the same in the different perspectives. The case is given by my Parish for my Sacrament of Chrism accomplished last year.

 This one is the funniest doll I ever had. This one is the first doll for my Valentine's gift, and the only doll for that case. I'm so touched. You wanna know who's the sender? Not boyfriend or best friend. Yes! MY LOVELY MOMMY. Thanks, Ma, you're the best.

I hope that one day I could add more shelves so that all my stuffs store here, in my room. For next project, I really want a door (I use curtain for this time). I also want to purchase a big mirror with the kits holder. I also want to purchase a rice lamp, and a desk lamp. Did you feel inspired?

I Scream

Oh I scream for this madness
This all sadness
That begin to fight me
It punch me
And I never back
How could I break?
Break from this crazy anger
And all the diary entries, is just me and the sadness
I scream...
I shriek...
I couldn't stand for this
Give me a rest
From this scream
And shriek...

New thought for college

I already mentioned that I need college by 2014 and the subject! I ever think 'bout Edinburgh, and it's still figured itself in my mind. It's just about my motivation to being global creatures. And beside of the bursting thought, you know my mind always working so it'll burst soon! Now, I think about Catholic college. I 'collage' it. There are University of Notre Dame, Boston College, and Farfield University. I think that they both Jesuit, or in Indonesia called 'Serikat Yesuit'. Well the Jesuit is the most famous I think, and I dreamed to school in Jesuit academy. I think that it'll be options. I don't think it's fixed thought. Cuz I'm crazy of think now!

2nd series

It's another series. Well, you'll find Pascal here. You also can find our shoes just similar.

My fifteen years timeline (1st series)

I'm really happy today. I have some surprising moment and MY BIG BRO's birthday, Pascal. I think I will show you three series of my birthday process. Me and my big bro's birthday is only a day difference. I was born in Magelang, 15 April 1998, and Pascal was born in Magelang, 14 April 1998. And because of my birthday and him, we are look for our childhood photo albums. So, I think I'll post few photos here.

This is me but such some 'water'

My first birthday April, 15, 1998

With aunty

With Om

I dunno Oppa Gangnam Style but I styled like that and it's awkward

I think this photo is enough for today, cause, it's not the right time of my birthday. It's tomorrow. So, I will give you next post for few other pictures. It's the little kind of me. Some style just awkward! Ugh...

I'm jealous

It's a clear title to describe what's on my mind. What actually I want to tell you. I'M JEALOUS, that's it. You know, I'm getting hard to prepare my school to study abroad. It's like really hard on my circumstance and environment. But, then my friend, who actually in the same old as me, reach what I've planned all this time. It's like burning inside, hopeless, and yeah... jealous. I don't want tell lie, but it's a really jealous (I would repeat it over and over). Jealous isn't a thing that positive. It's bad, if you know what I mean. It's bothering my mind (yours too), and above all IT'S NEGATIVE THINKING. But 'jealous' not bad on every side. I sometimes use it for motivation burning, so I would never forget about what I've planned and all. So, I never soluble in sadness and hopeless, nor angry. I would keep it less than an hour, then I will make better plan than before. But in one goal. But I really congratulate to my friend (I'm not sentimental at all)! :)

15 years old of me... almost

How do you judge my title of this post? Sad or happy? That's subjective, but I have the common feeling. You know, I have nothing to happy about and nothing to sad about. This is God want and "product" not mine. But, yeah, I appreciate 100% of my age about turning 15. I have to decorate my room into 'SWEET 15'. Do you think it's on 16 or 17 to have the sweet birthday? Not for me. It's sweet every time, like we have struggle to our life. Do you know how much you confused about something, your relationship, friendship, school? Did you ever feel sad and hopeless? Be proud of yourself, that you haven't suicide. Seriously, guys, you have hundreds of feels in a year, and by turning year to year, you actually still alive and not feel so much break down and SUICIDE. Be proud of yourself! And God too. He gives us the chance to live each year. Not too many people gets the lucky chance like us. So be proud, be proud, be proud (it's like my only vocabularies). I have no plan to do something before my birthday. You know, go to restaurant and get presents, that's a routinely each birthday. But, I want something positive like I never did before. There are too many to do. You know, start a relationship, dig for our chest of memories (diary, clothes, etc.), and so many else. It can be your choice too, but I want to act and volunteering. If I have no chance to volunteer, then, I should collect my used things and send to my cousin or someone's need it. I will do something. It's still a mystery. You know, this once is a lucky for me. Emphasized to act, my church celebrate Name Party. It's like celebrate our Saints. Names of Saint, it's praised and prayed for. They open a theater play and they still seek the role cast. You know, I'm still on my mind. Too hard to decide, but, until now, 40% of ma mind said, "YOU OUGHT TO JOIN THE PLAY." Ok. That's not overacting, you know. It actually really SCREAM in my head, as I'm going crazy. Oooh... suggest guys. I think I'd too much ask for suggest. I'm sorryyyy :)

Biology or Computer?

Do you think it's better to take Biology or Computer course? I've planned to take Philosophy class, but I'll balanced it with Science. I don't want Physics and Chemistry. I don't want pure Maths. So do you think I should take Biology or Computer in my college. I'll take O-Level, if I can, on 2014, and start my college course by 2015. I'm confused now. I think that Biology pressed to Chemistry, Maths, and Nature, and Computer pressed us to Maths and Physics. Just one, I still want the PHILOSOPHY. Oh I luuuuvvv it. Help me. (Don't suggest Medicine).

Respect Flower announcement...

Hi! Did you find the Respect Flower page? Yeah. It was totally awesome, actually. But there's technical problem isn't it? I'll repair it within one week. I'll explain you what Respect Flower is in the next post. It's free service and anyone can use. Because it's too manually, so, I'll count your flower of respect to people who's died already. Available now is for Margaret Thatcher, but, later I put so many people there. I want to put Anne Frank, Margot Frank, Otto Frank, Miep Gies, and Peter van Pels. Hope you know who they are. But not only that you know. There are so many plans. I would like to put Lady Diana Spencer, too. If you have any suggest, then feel free to suggest me in the comment box below, or just contact me personally by E-mail or Twitter. You can find me on Contact Page. And I want you to send as many flower as you can. It's not real flower, you know. Just count how many respect to them all. Now flowers available are Lily, Geranium, and Rose. I don't know else yet. So, suggest, suggest, suggest. Later!

Wonderful Life of Me

I don't have to much to say but adore what God gives to me, and how He trust all this job for me like all this time. I realize that He gives to much for me, that actually I take more than I give to Him. I'm sorry God, Jesus, and all the Heaven members! I never being a perfect people as You, as every body did but I try to be so. Too much I should explain. In short, I'M EXIST and that's all I adore for. The weather nowadays just try to suited on me. The sun shines every daytime. It makes the rest body of mine just into warm and good feeling. And I hear the bird twitter. They were awesome twitter, as nobody did. I don't know what they say, what the message they bring to us. Maybe they scream and shriek, humans are too bad to them. Killed their family? Trapped their friends? We don't actually know. All we know just those are 'singer' and money. But I wonder that if the bird are gone, we don't have something to hear in the morning. Whose woke us up. It was them. The 'clown' that nobody realized. I realize that butterflies grown up more this time. I see the green ones. They fly faster than we can ever imagine about that little creatures. The fear of dead and trapped is on their mind. And also the blooming flowers. Everything at once. Raining every day. Starts on afternoon ends by night or early at morning. I don't even hate it. Well, sometimes. When I go outside but raining is on there too. But I think, it drinks so many people, and there's too much people needs water nowadays, so, rain as much as God want, but don't give us disaster, please, God! And I have my friend on my hand. I don't even want to release them. No at all. I love them, I'll keep them, and I let them keep me. I enjoy they did that to me. But I remember this quotation: "Relationship is like holding sands. If we hold it loose, it will there forever. But if we hold it too tight, it will fell down and gone." I start to learn that we can't faced the world with all grumpily. Smile is the best way. But if we still can't smile, close our eyes until we smile. Haha! That's the best way I could think about. I watched Life of Pi and Brave last month. Those were two of my inspiration of meaning of life. Thanks for all the movies, people, and books that gave me inspiration all this time. Thank God for all things You've done to me.

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I don't have plan but I think the UPCOMING (I don't know when, the exactly) is my comic about life, Kiky and Lucie. I hope it can be your inspiration.

RANDOMZZ

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full of inbox messages

I've got so MANY emails nowadays. From friends, from family. It's tiring but, hey, I'm so much HAPPY. I always hit the Ymail! button every morning at 6 a. m. and take a look them all, and reply about 8 a. m. How happy I am! But, yes, it's full. I always wanting letter by post, but, no care if I got by email. I connected to the people worldwide. Thankzzz so much emails. I didn't realize it's awesome. But I can't attach the capture of my email here, 'cos I held their privacy. I'll keep it. You know, like their name and email address. But it seems I'd had 400 or more emails on my inbox. Keep me, friendzz :) and thanks to all people emailing me regularly. Like my pen pals (but by email). SO MUCH THANK YOU. I don't know why I'm so obsessed like this. But not only email, but my friends through Twitter also mentioned meeh. OMG! How many friendz I'd had. I just loving having friend. Oh... keep me! ;) have a nice day all. Cheerz.

something went trouble to my blah-blah so I cannot post few while ago

Hi! It's been so long time that I'm not post anything in this blog and my pro blog. I'm regret about that. Actually my internet connection just in trouble and it's better now. And I am sick as well. Start by today I will planned my next post. Don't worry! =)

new post.................

Great! I already posted my article in The Sheen Style. If you were read that, don't forget to share the link and comment. Thanks.

Photo I submit at my post

welcome Pope Francis I, hope you always belong to us

On 13 March 2013, I've heard about new Pope of Roman Catholic replaced the last Pope, Benedict XVI. He took Francis as his name and this is the first Pope using Francis. And I won't too long to write because I have some other business, and CONGRATZ for the new Pope.

dark is the new white?

It's a quizzing title because, yes, I actually got that idea when I wore my gray dress I got when I was about ten years old. It's dress I wear on every time I have to go to church (when it was under knees length). And I also got my Mom dress. It's black actually and everybody love when I use that with my dark-blue cardigan I got on my 14th birthday. The problem is, why everybody describe that every black shade is evil? I mean, that culture is our doctrine. So... why don't we just push that idea and just work on BLACK SHADE IS THE NEW WHITE! And I'll post my style with captures of dark dress, so, you might to change your mind. See on The Sheen Style, teenz! =)

hullooo...

Well, hi (it's just like some doctrine)! Imagine, today, Monday, March, 18-2013, my course will be start. It will be 20.00 WIB (Indonesia West Time) but 09.00 a.m EDT. So, it's the HUGE different. Wondering if they started on 13.00 EDT, I should prepare for insomnia before =P haha. But anyway I took several reference the professor gave to us then I printed it out. Actually, it's a long reading but, I think not all page I should read. I mean, I wonder that I read it some weeks ago :( Anyway, it's actually a Ancient Greek literature I read. In week one, we just discussed pre-historical of Ancient Greek then the characters. We actually learn about the gods and goddess', I think. But there will the Persian War, etc. Whatever linked on Ancient Greek. Oh..... and did you already hear Titanium by David Guetta and Sia? I think it will be the next playlist and music video. Stay tune on my blog and Vimeo account. See ya! =)

the music video just uploaded and posted

I have to told you that the music video already uploaded last night. And it's awesome. You may take a look to my post. Or I'll embed that here:


Please Please Stay from Veronica E-W on Vimeo.
Enjoy! =)

already posted

Hi! How it's going? I just posted about Marilyn's outfit and it's here. I hope you guys read. And I have some technical problem about 'you might also like' but I'll solved it soon. Well, can't wait ur comment, teenz. I think I ended here today =) bye... Oh... and next posts will be about floral patterns, church style, and style inspired by theatrical dancer costume. And, well, I already prepared my first music video. It's a song by Colbie Caillat and Lucky Uke. The tittle will be Please Please Stay and I'll illustrated that. Haha. I'll post it on Vimeo next. I already had the account because I actually get some trouble in YouTube. It's just cannot running well and it's just like there's so many occurs shows, so... better made another account. I'll embed it into my pro blog. Bye... =)

vote closed

Hi! Vote closed today, and you may take a look at the vote diagram. And I will replace it in an hour later, so, just take a look on the sidebar NOW before I remove that. And, bye, guys! I moved to Sheen Style now... see ya.

a little hi (again)....

I'm glad to know that you're still read my blog. I appreciate everyone read this or commented. I just here to give you announcement. I'll post about Marilyn Monroe. I hope you all know who is Marilyn Monroe, but if you don't, then click through for more information about Marilyn. For just a LITTLE information, Marilyn is an actress on year 1950s through 1960s. Her real name is Norma Jeane, and you may know it on Elton John song, Candle in the Wind 1973, song for Norma Jeane before Candle in the Wind 1997 for England's Rose or Princess Diana Spencer who died by an accident. Anyway, Marilyn was American sexual icon in her active year. And I just captured her outfits. I already posted it in my book journal before but I'll add few photos from Google as well. Hope you guys watch my post in Sheen Style.

That was my second page. The big one is Marilyn's act on opera. The two small ones captured her act, too. And the black-white one just like an ad to introduce her theater. But hope you watch it. And that was my font, yes. Are you terrible with it? My font going bad so fast =) see ya, teenz!

foolish... i am FOOLISH

FOOL... did you know that someone's ask me, "Do you mind that......?" I'm so nervous then answered, "Oh, um, yes. Well, I am Veronica........." Ha! That's crazy. Stop this nervous feel, GEEZ! -__- ok, then, later I'll post what I'll post in Sheen Style. See ya!

English Language Turned Mode On......

I'm sorry for my lack of post. I must be honest that nowadays, I have super school schedule. I have so many work to do. There's several other class I took last week. It must be real-real-real busy in case that I took my course at Monday, March, 18. I took Ancient Greek History and Theory and for my certificate, I should accomplished it about 5 until 8 weeks. For wtv berenice language, I turned it into English to support my pro blog. I hope Indonesian reader would understand. And I will linked my new pro blog here (in the nav bar) so you may find it easier, and I will linked this blog into my pro blog so reader of my pro blog easily find this personal blog. See ya! =)

Congratulation to myself for my full name accomplished

Huraaaaaaay! Anyway, now I found the best for my public and literary name. What do you think about Berenice Vasques? Aku selalu akan memakainya sebagai nama dunia mayaku. Berenice Vasques... Bukankah nama yang indah? Dan aku memakai Maria sebagai nama tengahku. Maria aku ambil dari nama nenek dari Pa, Maria Nona. Bahkan nenek dari Ma juga Maria. Namanya Maria Magdalena Alaque. Jadi aku mengambil nama Maria. Nama lengkapku Berenice Maria Vasques. Penuh imajinasi! Haha... tetapi dalam dunia sastra kita lebih sering memakai nama samaran, kan? Meet our writer now, guests, Miss Berenice Vasques... LOL =)

Goodbye as a Pope, Joseph Ratzinger... Your service always belongs to us

This photo from: Wikipedia-Biography of Pope Benedict XVI

Februari lalu dunia geger karena Bapa Joseph Aloisius Ratzinger akan meletakkan jabatan kepausannya. Telah ditetapkan pada 28 Februari 2013. Jujur, aku nahan tangis, yah... Hampir sepanjang sejarah hidupku pribadi, satu-satunya Paus yang paling kuingat adalah Paus Benediktus XVI atau Joseph Ratzinger tersebut. Mungkin seiring usiaku tua, sehingga lebih mengerti guna Paus bagi kehidupanku. Bapa Ratzinger terkenal sebagai Paus yang sangat tradisional. Ajarannya begitu ortodoks dan dia menetapkan beberapa peraturan yang sangat, sangat, sangat kultural. Tetapi, di luar dari semua itu, aku adalah perempuan hampir limabelas tahun yang dibesarkan dalam Katolik Roma yang kental, dan bisa dibilang sedikit ortodoks. Didasari oleh kedua kakek-nenekku dari Ma. Setiap hari, mereka berdua pergi ke gereja untuk pelayanan. Ma sendiri sangat aktif sangat remaja. Pa menjadi aktivis gereja dulunya, dan merupakan Putra Altar yang cukup rajin. Selain itu, Pa menyukai menyanyi, sehingga dia mengikuti paduan suara. Setiap Minggu, kalau aku dan Pascal (adikku) tidak ke gereja, Ma akan marah besar. Begitulah... Dan keluargaku sangat melarang aku melakukan hubungan seksual ringan. Semacam berciuman, yang sedang cukup ngetren di kalangan teman-temanku. Bahkan berpelukan! Kami didoktrin untuk tidak melakukan hal itu, dan mempersembahkan segalanya yang TERMURNI untuk pasangan sehidup semati kami suatu saat nanti, atau jika kami memutuskan hidup berselibat, kami sangat murni untuk Tuhan. Jadi, kami dan Bapa Suci Ratzinger begitu menyatu secara paradigma. Sehingga saat dia mengumumkan pengunduran dirinya, mengingat usia yang tidak muda dan cukup sakit-sakitan, kami terkaget-kaget. Aku bahkan menggunting kliping berita tiap hari tentang Vatikan dan Bapa Ratzinger, dan kutempel di buku harian. Aku sedih tidak berkorespondensi dengan dia. Dan pidato terakhirnya, dia berkata pada intinya, "Di antar Bapak-bapak Kardinal ini, pasti ada yang menjadi Paus. Saya berjanji akan menaati segala yang diatur salah satu dari Anda TANPA SYARAT." Terharu!

Young Pope Benedict XVI-Thanks to this forum

 Tetapi Pa sempat meragukan, karena Bapa Ratzinger memimpin dunia per-Katolik-an selama ini dengan sangat tradisional. Jika penerusnya melakukan gerakan revolusioner dengan melakukan perubahan modern pada paradigma Katolik, Pa meragukan Bapa Ratzinger akan taat tanpa syarat. Tapi, waktu yang akan membuktikan. Hanya ada dua harapan, semoga Vatikan menemukan pemimpin gereja Katolik Roma yang tepat, sehingga Katolik semakin maju. Kedua, semoga Bapa Joseph Ratzinger selalu disertai Tuhan, dan menikmati masa tuanya senikmat-nikmatnya. Bagaimanapun, your service always belongs to us. Saya dan keluarga sering kali mendoakan ia dan kesehatannya. Goodbye as a Pope, Father Ratzinger! But you used to be a leader, and no one forget it, and me as well =)