Collage for my photograph

Hi! Now I just like to combine picture to picture and create a digital collage. Nowadays, I just create basic shape of collage, but next time I'll go for another shape of collage. I have two collages. The first is family collage, and the other is my photograph collage.

You can conclude here that me, I have long haired and prefer to tied it up or make a bun. But now I cut it off. You also may to conclude that I have one younger brother which is on his early teenage and dark tanned skin. He is taller than me and Ma. He also loves Guns N' Roses (SLASH!!!). Other conclusion is that my Ma is the shortest one and the most light skin. She also wear glasses and a bit big, but she's awesome. Other, that my Pa is tallest. Even he's only 1,62 meter. I also have a female pom dog, which really cute and fluffy. And I also have a cousin. She is with my Pa in this collage, and she wore blue shirt. She has short and extremely curly hair. We meet her last March.

I also love to documented MY SELF. I hope I'm a model, but I have so many flaws to be as perfect as a model. Like, I have short body. I'm only 1.6 meters. And I have just little confidence, and I'm a bit have height. So, I prefer to documented my self with my own pocket camera. This collage is all my face. I tied up my short hair. And can you see the guitar I hold? Yes, I can play guitar quite well. I like to sing Candle in the Wind '97 by Elton John and Angel by Sarah McLachlan (and PLAY the guitar!). Sometime I wish I could be more taller than this height I have. And I'm happy that I have enough struggle to reach that. I have the goal that I could be 1.65 meters (added 5 more centimeters) in a year. Which mean by end of April 2014 (or I'm 16 years old), I have the height of my dream. Then I can start to dream about being a model. Or just a model for college magazine, OR just in this blog. Well, I wish I could.

My room as a gift (3rd series)

It's my duty to finish all the three series in case of my 15th birthday last April, 15th. I already told you that I get my room for preparation of 15 age of my life. I decorate it unclear. But now, I just felt it's awesome room since I hanged up shelves and table that supporting my job and duty.

From this natural natural nature, I decide to create natural room and the shelves. Since this post is stress/focusing on my new shelves, I just capture these shelves.

Did I mentioned to you yet, that I'm Christian, so, I organize my room as a Christian. Since I collect so many Christianity sculptures, and gave by other, I have so many collection of Christianity. I adore Saint Virgin Mary the most, but I'm not discriminate the other. We believe in one God. I still hunt for Santa Veronica sculpture. Since I'm also Angelic, also had the sculpture. That one is St. Michael the Archangel. He step on a demon that it's meaningful to me.

The demon he steps on

Isn't he's so adorable? The painting is took from Wikipedia for St. Michael. I know that I'm so Orthodox, but I think almost all Christian is Angelic. And I hear that Muslim too. I think it's because angel is adorable creature. That they were best known as guardians and servant.

My Saint Virgin Mary sculpture is especially for the Event of Lourdes. Did you know the story? I like that story so much. The girl named Bernadette Soubirous (b. January, 7th, 1844 - d. April, 16th 1879) saw to process of wild beautiful roses grew in the wasteland, that even water cannot came up. The top event is that she saw Saint Virgin Mary. From that time the Pope of Roman Catholic Blessed her as a Saint.

Those two old photos is took from Wikipedia for St. Bernadette of Lourdes.

Encyclopedia of Saints and a childish Bible from my aunt

 Those two rosary and rosary case with Cross shaped is two objects the same in the different perspectives. The case is given by my Parish for my Sacrament of Chrism accomplished last year.

 This one is the funniest doll I ever had. This one is the first doll for my Valentine's gift, and the only doll for that case. I'm so touched. You wanna know who's the sender? Not boyfriend or best friend. Yes! MY LOVELY MOMMY. Thanks, Ma, you're the best.

I hope that one day I could add more shelves so that all my stuffs store here, in my room. For next project, I really want a door (I use curtain for this time). I also want to purchase a big mirror with the kits holder. I also want to purchase a rice lamp, and a desk lamp. Did you feel inspired?

I Scream

Oh I scream for this madness
This all sadness
That begin to fight me
It punch me
And I never back
How could I break?
Break from this crazy anger
And all the diary entries, is just me and the sadness
I scream...
I shriek...
I couldn't stand for this
Give me a rest
From this scream
And shriek...

New thought for college

I already mentioned that I need college by 2014 and the subject! I ever think 'bout Edinburgh, and it's still figured itself in my mind. It's just about my motivation to being global creatures. And beside of the bursting thought, you know my mind always working so it'll burst soon! Now, I think about Catholic college. I 'collage' it. There are University of Notre Dame, Boston College, and Farfield University. I think that they both Jesuit, or in Indonesia called 'Serikat Yesuit'. Well the Jesuit is the most famous I think, and I dreamed to school in Jesuit academy. I think that it'll be options. I don't think it's fixed thought. Cuz I'm crazy of think now!

2nd series

It's another series. Well, you'll find Pascal here. You also can find our shoes just similar.

My fifteen years timeline (1st series)

I'm really happy today. I have some surprising moment and MY BIG BRO's birthday, Pascal. I think I will show you three series of my birthday process. Me and my big bro's birthday is only a day difference. I was born in Magelang, 15 April 1998, and Pascal was born in Magelang, 14 April 1998. And because of my birthday and him, we are look for our childhood photo albums. So, I think I'll post few photos here.

This is me but such some 'water'

My first birthday April, 15, 1998

With aunty

With Om

I dunno Oppa Gangnam Style but I styled like that and it's awkward

I think this photo is enough for today, cause, it's not the right time of my birthday. It's tomorrow. So, I will give you next post for few other pictures. It's the little kind of me. Some style just awkward! Ugh...

I'm jealous

It's a clear title to describe what's on my mind. What actually I want to tell you. I'M JEALOUS, that's it. You know, I'm getting hard to prepare my school to study abroad. It's like really hard on my circumstance and environment. But, then my friend, who actually in the same old as me, reach what I've planned all this time. It's like burning inside, hopeless, and yeah... jealous. I don't want tell lie, but it's a really jealous (I would repeat it over and over). Jealous isn't a thing that positive. It's bad, if you know what I mean. It's bothering my mind (yours too), and above all IT'S NEGATIVE THINKING. But 'jealous' not bad on every side. I sometimes use it for motivation burning, so I would never forget about what I've planned and all. So, I never soluble in sadness and hopeless, nor angry. I would keep it less than an hour, then I will make better plan than before. But in one goal. But I really congratulate to my friend (I'm not sentimental at all)! :)

15 years old of me... almost

How do you judge my title of this post? Sad or happy? That's subjective, but I have the common feeling. You know, I have nothing to happy about and nothing to sad about. This is God want and "product" not mine. But, yeah, I appreciate 100% of my age about turning 15. I have to decorate my room into 'SWEET 15'. Do you think it's on 16 or 17 to have the sweet birthday? Not for me. It's sweet every time, like we have struggle to our life. Do you know how much you confused about something, your relationship, friendship, school? Did you ever feel sad and hopeless? Be proud of yourself, that you haven't suicide. Seriously, guys, you have hundreds of feels in a year, and by turning year to year, you actually still alive and not feel so much break down and SUICIDE. Be proud of yourself! And God too. He gives us the chance to live each year. Not too many people gets the lucky chance like us. So be proud, be proud, be proud (it's like my only vocabularies). I have no plan to do something before my birthday. You know, go to restaurant and get presents, that's a routinely each birthday. But, I want something positive like I never did before. There are too many to do. You know, start a relationship, dig for our chest of memories (diary, clothes, etc.), and so many else. It can be your choice too, but I want to act and volunteering. If I have no chance to volunteer, then, I should collect my used things and send to my cousin or someone's need it. I will do something. It's still a mystery. You know, this once is a lucky for me. Emphasized to act, my church celebrate Name Party. It's like celebrate our Saints. Names of Saint, it's praised and prayed for. They open a theater play and they still seek the role cast. You know, I'm still on my mind. Too hard to decide, but, until now, 40% of ma mind said, "YOU OUGHT TO JOIN THE PLAY." Ok. That's not overacting, you know. It actually really SCREAM in my head, as I'm going crazy. Oooh... suggest guys. I think I'd too much ask for suggest. I'm sorryyyy :)

Biology or Computer?

Do you think it's better to take Biology or Computer course? I've planned to take Philosophy class, but I'll balanced it with Science. I don't want Physics and Chemistry. I don't want pure Maths. So do you think I should take Biology or Computer in my college. I'll take O-Level, if I can, on 2014, and start my college course by 2015. I'm confused now. I think that Biology pressed to Chemistry, Maths, and Nature, and Computer pressed us to Maths and Physics. Just one, I still want the PHILOSOPHY. Oh I luuuuvvv it. Help me. (Don't suggest Medicine).

Respect Flower announcement...

Hi! Did you find the Respect Flower page? Yeah. It was totally awesome, actually. But there's technical problem isn't it? I'll repair it within one week. I'll explain you what Respect Flower is in the next post. It's free service and anyone can use. Because it's too manually, so, I'll count your flower of respect to people who's died already. Available now is for Margaret Thatcher, but, later I put so many people there. I want to put Anne Frank, Margot Frank, Otto Frank, Miep Gies, and Peter van Pels. Hope you know who they are. But not only that you know. There are so many plans. I would like to put Lady Diana Spencer, too. If you have any suggest, then feel free to suggest me in the comment box below, or just contact me personally by E-mail or Twitter. You can find me on Contact Page. And I want you to send as many flower as you can. It's not real flower, you know. Just count how many respect to them all. Now flowers available are Lily, Geranium, and Rose. I don't know else yet. So, suggest, suggest, suggest. Later!

Wonderful Life of Me

I don't have to much to say but adore what God gives to me, and how He trust all this job for me like all this time. I realize that He gives to much for me, that actually I take more than I give to Him. I'm sorry God, Jesus, and all the Heaven members! I never being a perfect people as You, as every body did but I try to be so. Too much I should explain. In short, I'M EXIST and that's all I adore for. The weather nowadays just try to suited on me. The sun shines every daytime. It makes the rest body of mine just into warm and good feeling. And I hear the bird twitter. They were awesome twitter, as nobody did. I don't know what they say, what the message they bring to us. Maybe they scream and shriek, humans are too bad to them. Killed their family? Trapped their friends? We don't actually know. All we know just those are 'singer' and money. But I wonder that if the bird are gone, we don't have something to hear in the morning. Whose woke us up. It was them. The 'clown' that nobody realized. I realize that butterflies grown up more this time. I see the green ones. They fly faster than we can ever imagine about that little creatures. The fear of dead and trapped is on their mind. And also the blooming flowers. Everything at once. Raining every day. Starts on afternoon ends by night or early at morning. I don't even hate it. Well, sometimes. When I go outside but raining is on there too. But I think, it drinks so many people, and there's too much people needs water nowadays, so, rain as much as God want, but don't give us disaster, please, God! And I have my friend on my hand. I don't even want to release them. No at all. I love them, I'll keep them, and I let them keep me. I enjoy they did that to me. But I remember this quotation: "Relationship is like holding sands. If we hold it loose, it will there forever. But if we hold it too tight, it will fell down and gone." I start to learn that we can't faced the world with all grumpily. Smile is the best way. But if we still can't smile, close our eyes until we smile. Haha! That's the best way I could think about. I watched Life of Pi and Brave last month. Those were two of my inspiration of meaning of life. Thanks for all the movies, people, and books that gave me inspiration all this time. Thank God for all things You've done to me.

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I don't have plan but I think the UPCOMING (I don't know when, the exactly) is my comic about life, Kiky and Lucie. I hope it can be your inspiration.

RANDOMZZ

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full of inbox messages

I've got so MANY emails nowadays. From friends, from family. It's tiring but, hey, I'm so much HAPPY. I always hit the Ymail! button every morning at 6 a. m. and take a look them all, and reply about 8 a. m. How happy I am! But, yes, it's full. I always wanting letter by post, but, no care if I got by email. I connected to the people worldwide. Thankzzz so much emails. I didn't realize it's awesome. But I can't attach the capture of my email here, 'cos I held their privacy. I'll keep it. You know, like their name and email address. But it seems I'd had 400 or more emails on my inbox. Keep me, friendzz :) and thanks to all people emailing me regularly. Like my pen pals (but by email). SO MUCH THANK YOU. I don't know why I'm so obsessed like this. But not only email, but my friends through Twitter also mentioned meeh. OMG! How many friendz I'd had. I just loving having friend. Oh... keep me! ;) have a nice day all. Cheerz.