New progress

I hope it's not a big deal that it takes too long time till I write down my story in this blog. I don't want to tell you anymore, just to remain why. Take your time to read the posts before =) it shall explained everything! So, I don't have any idea to write, so I just take my time, sit on this wooden chair with my books around me, and a puff I hug. It's comfortable to write anything. Circumstance! It gives inspiration. Lucky me! My house just has a front yard, and we have terrace [and a balcony upstairs] back of the yard. Not such a huge yard, but who cares if there are tens of tropical plants here. And this room just really Javanese style, and WOODEN! So, I can write down in this blog again because of my home sweet home. So, this month I should complete my test. I just completed my English test ended up with TOEFL test. Guess what that dramatically progress?! I get increased!! I've got 473,3 for this test =) remember when I told you I just get 430? Yeah it increased. Awesome... I think He gives me so much thing to enjoy/glad to. Woohoo!

Hi!

Heyyyy! Count on how much times I passed without write to you from this blog. I don't think I would regularly write it because I don't really have enthusiasm about it. I mean, it's a little portion to my future times. And I have a blog in case of poetry and literature instead of telling my habits. If you would to read, it's on here. Click to directed into the blog. I should warn you, that blog is Indonesian language only :)

Love and Silence (fiction)

These days is adorable. All the struggle and passion likely come to me. Not a sudden (or it's so). I walked fast every time we met, and that feeling was the GREAT feeling ever in my mind. More than the final I ever want, a propose. But who cares for this little-baby-child? A 15 years old not old enough, isn't it? And for a love came to this baby-child, it was ignored by the world. Don't you feel disgusting by the people, if they say, "Oh, you're a little! It isn't your position to loving a guy." I fight on this situation that all people should think that 15 years old girl, doesn't have a MUST to feel love. Okay, so I feel it, I judge it, and I permitted it for my own self. You should try this trick, so, you would not feel alone! One day I met him on this church. This small and developing church. With no bells every morning, and no clean toilets. Where the people come for pray and serves and went back home in the joy. I sat in that huge room and wonder why I'm here? For a bless or for the people? For a give or for an ask? As a early teen, I even don't know, why should I have this religion on me. And a pray is an habit. When a boy come and change my life. I don't care for the any feels I ever felt. All my focused is on that feeling... and his eyes, I thought. And the priest, the choir, and the preach, I ignore them for the eyes shoot me here, at this here, right here. The organization just predetermine us to meet. But that feeling is an awkward. By the age of 16 of mine, we only talk for introduction. I'm Lulu, and he's Chris. That's all. He's too superior which makes me small. He's too smart and brilliant, I thought. He school at the best college. And me? I'm just 16, five years younger than him. He wouldn't take a look on this baby-child. And this day, I just never talked to him after that introduction. I pretend to not know him, as my heart was broken. I grow my own family and let him outside of my door. He's not allowed to come to this new family of mine, which my children would be 16 and 14 this year. I don't let him. I'm disappointed~LULU
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That time when I was twenty, I sat on that room, which my favorite church in this city. My orientation is dream high so I could collect money for myself. Not actually for myself, but, hey, it was self developing! I get all I need, like graduated from my highschool and continued to this popular and best-known school. Even I don't have a lover all this time, but I enjoy this situation as an intelligence. That time when I met a girl which is five years younger than me, I felt disgusted of her acts. She dance like a child and I don't even give respect to her. I mean, she is an highschool student. She is an freshman. I don't think I would give respect to any younger. But she's quite shy, I think. We talked a bit, but just like, "My name is Lulu." And I just like, "Yeah... hi, Lulu! My name's Chris." That's all. Three years later she is graduated and school at the same school as mine (she's smart, I don't even think about that!). But I'm already graduated and work. That time I make sure that she's quite perfect (nobody's perfect!). But I shy of the thought that I mocked her the first time we met. And I also don't think if she likes me, which is so much older than her. I'm too shy to aware that I fall in love to her. So, we keep never talked each other. The last day I met her, when I fall asleep almost seventy years from that time. Guess what! I'm almost 100, yes. When I just dreamed about my descendants grow older and have a good work on their time. When suddenly my dreams change into a girl. A young girl. She said, "Although I'm disappointed that we never know and friends, but I would say something which memorable to you." I answered, "Yes, what?". "I'm gonna leave you now. You may be sleep in peace after it because no question about me on your mind. Thanks for everything," she said gently. I know she hugs me after that. I was shocked and in the morning, the news spread. That Lulu, the girl I just know, love, and mocked, died after suffer the cancer for thirty years! Yes, miracle always happened, but it sometimes came too late. I have this program to tell anyone to say whatever you think about someone you love before it's too late and disappoint came to you! Quick before it's too late~CHRIS

Gallery #1

These days just got fun since all my friends is enjoying their break after National Final Examination 2013. I have little time three times a week to have fun and enjoy my life with my best friends. Meeting friends and having friends are two things I really wait for. No matter they have flaws, but, hey, we should be honest we're full of flaws! Don't judge what you look but the empiric. So go on it, research it, and you'll know they have their own goodness above their flaws. And one of my friend, Ajeng, was so enjoyable person and we chat about anything and bike over the village or until Prambanan Temple (also known as 'A Thousand Temples' or 'Seribu Candi'). During the break she came and last time we had take our photographs so it will memorize to our own. And guess where am I? Yep! I wore blue T-shirt with my hair tied back and I don't have bangs. We also bring some seasonal flowers. The form just similar as dandelions in Europe/America/Australia. Since we don't have dandelion in Indonesia. Ajeng wore black shirt (or gray). And she has slanted eyes. More slanted than mine. I don't think I'm slanted eyes. And her eyebrow just lighter and thinner than mine. In short she's like Malayan Mongoloid/East Mongoloid, and I'm half Caucasoid, since, YES, I'm half Portugal.

Sorry!

SORRY GUYS! I'm regret that I have no enough time to update this blog like weekly or more regular than that. Just because I'm a homeschool student doesn't mean I'm free on job. I have hard duties as a homeschool student and I divide my time to spend to write this blog. I will post as many as possible; if only I could. The problem nowadays is that I have tests next week, on Monday, 6th of May. And I'm going to be Pre-U student. That's mean I'm on my work to search and linked to colleges I will attend. I think about universities, since it's less than 2 years until I'm 17 years old and old enough to going "outside this circle" anymore. I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Keep in touch, since I actively on Twitter and E-mail. But I think next we isn't possible :( as I told you in this article, next week I have tests. For Philosophy, Maths, Psychology, Sociology, Biology, Language (Indonesia, English, French), Ethics, Discussion, Writing, Economy, and World History (in particular of World War I and II, and about Holocaust and Nazi). It was hard since there will be essay for all of them. One lesson a day. I will have test about TWO WEEKS imagine! So, it will be busy this month.

Something that could be fun...

Something that could be fun is... NEW EXPERIENCE. Doesn't matter if it was good or bad experience, it always fun to learn about our life. As we know that the old people give a thought that "EXPERIENCE IS A GOOD TEACHER". I believe on that. Though we don't aware about that yet, we will be sometime, when it was working to our life. That does to me. This experience need a hard work, high skill, and good confidence. Yeah, act! I used to be actress when I was younger. I mean school actress (LMAO :D). And now, it was so long time since the last time I decided to end my career (not ACTUALLY career) to be an actress. Then now I started to repeated my GOLDEN TIME when I become an theater/drama player. It wasn't easy. But yes it was fun. And something like stick on teenager souls is CRUSH *winked eyes*. I don't want to pretend to be innocence. I know a lot about crush and love, since I learn about Personality and Psychology. But hey, I'm the subject too. Just let to say, I feel the same as what I study about. So, yeah, it was happened to me. What happened to me now isn't crush or love. I just used to crushed on him, and now he's only an idol and totally I don't even wanted to make him as my crush again. I mean, not yet. May be I just remember of the TEST I should passed next week, and the school I should passed until next year. It was completely HARD. And I don't have too much time to spend my energy and time for crush on someone. But an idol is a figure of WHAT YOU WANNA REACH. So, that's why people should idol a good person (yolo :p). And a crush is a need, sometimes. Back to the topic. I just had fun to this experience and hope for some more CRAZY experience I could passed and enjoyed on. Cheerz!

Collage for my photograph

Hi! Now I just like to combine picture to picture and create a digital collage. Nowadays, I just create basic shape of collage, but next time I'll go for another shape of collage. I have two collages. The first is family collage, and the other is my photograph collage.

You can conclude here that me, I have long haired and prefer to tied it up or make a bun. But now I cut it off. You also may to conclude that I have one younger brother which is on his early teenage and dark tanned skin. He is taller than me and Ma. He also loves Guns N' Roses (SLASH!!!). Other conclusion is that my Ma is the shortest one and the most light skin. She also wear glasses and a bit big, but she's awesome. Other, that my Pa is tallest. Even he's only 1,62 meter. I also have a female pom dog, which really cute and fluffy. And I also have a cousin. She is with my Pa in this collage, and she wore blue shirt. She has short and extremely curly hair. We meet her last March.

I also love to documented MY SELF. I hope I'm a model, but I have so many flaws to be as perfect as a model. Like, I have short body. I'm only 1.6 meters. And I have just little confidence, and I'm a bit have height. So, I prefer to documented my self with my own pocket camera. This collage is all my face. I tied up my short hair. And can you see the guitar I hold? Yes, I can play guitar quite well. I like to sing Candle in the Wind '97 by Elton John and Angel by Sarah McLachlan (and PLAY the guitar!). Sometime I wish I could be more taller than this height I have. And I'm happy that I have enough struggle to reach that. I have the goal that I could be 1.65 meters (added 5 more centimeters) in a year. Which mean by end of April 2014 (or I'm 16 years old), I have the height of my dream. Then I can start to dream about being a model. Or just a model for college magazine, OR just in this blog. Well, I wish I could.